I didn’t feel in love.

Kristen and Caleb
As confused as I was about my feelings, I distinctly remember how strange it was to end our phone calls with just “Good night” and not “Good night, I love you.” I bit my tongue and often almost said “I love you!” many times. I had to stop myself.
I didn’t feel in love – I wanted to know where those stupid butterflies were! They were still caterpillars, but they were there. Not in the form I imagined, or the way I was looking for them…
"We can’t take someone else’s story, no matter how much we like it, and superimpose it onto our own life. God writes a unique story for each of us, and trying to figure it out ahead of time is futile at best."