Written by a sister in Christ in response to a survey posted on the YLCF in 2004…
If you had told me at seventeen (when I first fell in love) that I would still be unmarried at twenty-seven, I would have been horrified! Now, I wouldn’t trade those exciting, surprising and difficult years for anything. Dealing with “hope deferred” seems to come in waves: occasionally I’m swamped, but (sometimes) I’m too excited about the adventures God sends my way (and most of the time) I’m too busy to worry much about marriage. Still, probably one of the biggest lessons I’ve learned is that emotions are very real and whether I ignore them or not, they still affect me. Here King David is a great example, because I can “pour out my heart” to Jesus when romantic emotions overwhelm me. I find sympathy, strength, toughness, and hope in Jesus.
One of my biggest comforts comes from the book of Ruth. When Naomi tells Ruth to “sit still and wait until you see how the matter will fall,” she adds, “for the man will not rest until he finishes the matter this day.” If Boaz was so motivated by his love for Ruth, how much more is Jesus busily preparing my future? Yes, I’m sitting, but He’s not! He has plans; He’s in action. I can well afford to trust Him!
It’s great training for keeping my eyes in the right place – on Jesus – and that’s what this poem is about.
What almost is (but isn’t) hurts.
It stabs and stings and squeezes.
It presses patience out
And unsought anger teases.
I dare not tell you:
Can’t you see?
My eye’s on you…
Is yours on me?
And if it is, and if you care,
Why are you still just standing there
On Sovereign Love, with faith rock steady,
Is your eye fixed until He’s ready?
(If you can do it, I can too).
I’ll stare at Him and stow my worry
(Backstage: heaven’s stir and scurry)
Hope’s long deferred;
I’m waiting still
But, eyes on Him, I’ll wait until
What almost is (but isn’t)